Urge!

The urge to write! I feel the urge to write. To paint my soul on this blank canvas with black ink. As much as I feel this way, the words aren't there. I can't find any one word to express how i truly feel. I search my insides from my heart to the pit of my stomach for some form of expression. Nothing comes. All I want to do is write. Its the most frustrating, ironic, contradiction in my life. I want to write blank words. My mind is blankly racing with every word I can think of to explain how I feel. The words just won't form complete sentences to give me a concrete thought, or topic. I have never felt so lost like the words were incapable of being found. When they come to me I just hope I still have the urge.